I am tired of Instagram.

This is something I am feeling for a while, I used to enjoy Instagram big time, especially, when it was just discovered, it was my way to connect with people, see something new and to share my life with no pressure. I used to live with grandma in our house,forest and filds around, we had two cats, small dog and limited Internet. It was good enough to share some pics, but not good enough to waste my time.

Because of limitation, I had more then enough time to live, to create. I was working in the garden, walking, cycling and many other things.

Now, I am living in India and faced different types of limitations, could not walk freely or cycle, or running simply because I wasn’t familiar with areas, people were quite interested to interact with me, often in ood ways, even though I wasn’t alone it was making me feel uncomfortable or even scared, so for my savety I was walking around with my husband, which is nice, but I also used to have a lot of time just for myself. That is how social media became more in my life, I even thought I can be a blogger on this platform and for 3 years I was doing things, being out there. On this journey I understood that this place is too fast for me, it takes too much for things what it gives to me. My days were running through my fingers like a water and many beautiful moments weren’t fully lived.

In the end of 2022 I felt, that I need to do something different in different place, which feels potentially more meaningful, where I can give more as a person and I started my YouTube channel and came back on Medium.

On inner level I feel satisfied and more calmer, I feel it was good decision.

In this moment I am sitting outside my room and seeing such colorful sunset and I want to keep it just for myself, clouds playing with wind and taking so many shapes, illuminated by sun rays, each second something different is happening.

I was lacking such a life, all this small moments and being still.

I don’t think I will be back on Instagram in a same way, it doesn’t exites me anymore, but I am grateful that through it I understood myself better.

Thank you for sharing your time with me . I really appreciate it.